Saturday, July 14, 2012

6 months...

I can't believe that it's been 6 months since you were in my arms.  
I miss you, bubba.  
I would give anything if we could be rocking and singing Elmo again.  It hurts to even be going through your pictures.... 
Mommy loves you more than you'll ever know. 




Love,
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50 comments:

  1. Still here thinking of you and praying for you, Courtney.
    Love you,
    Sharee

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  2. I pray for you to have a peaceful heart. I can't imagine your pain.

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  3. Sending you a huge hug from the UK & hoping it will take away some of your pain. Wish i could do more :(

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  4. I think of you often Courtney. I can't imagine the pain you feel I am praying you have peace. You are such an amazing woman..period! I know Tripp and Jesus are with you always and smiling and wanting you to be happy. God bless.

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  5. I can't believe it has been that long.. as always you are in my prayers for your heart not to be in so much pain..Happy thoughts to you.
    Nancy

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  6. Still praying for you and Tripp, Courtney. I had a very productive visit to the University of Minnesota where I was able to meet with some of the great people who are doing research with EB there. I was able to discuss some of my thoughts on potential ways to treat the ocular complications of this disease. I am continuing to research things here as I hope to be able to help babies with EB further in the future at least from the eye standpoint.

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  7. 6 months worth of angels singing away to Tripp as he drums his tunes out in heaven~ carry those songs in your heart Courtney. Your drummer boy knows your heart and sends his love right to you everyday. Just know many of us think about your Tripp, your family and you everyday, praying for God's peace for all your hearts~

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  8. Hey Courtney I just wanted to say that I read your blog with every new post since December. You are so strong. You have never left my prayers or your sweet baby. I read that your sister will be in Valdosta, GA . I live right near there and have family there too. It kind of made me smile because she is your family and I've always wanted to meet you. I know it sounds strange ....well I bet it is for a total strange to email you. I know God has a special place for you in heaven for taking care of one of his Angels and sharing the gospel even in this terrible heartache. Stay positive and strong!

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  9. Sweet, sweet boy. (((HUGS)))

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  10. My heart aches for you and how much you must miss your baby. Continuing to pray for peace and joy for you.

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  11. Every time I see Elmo on TV I think of little Tripp <3

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  12. Love you, friend. I was watching Elmo with some of my kiddos today and couldn't help but think of Tripp. I can't imagine how much you miss him. I'll continue to pray for you to have peace and strength in the days to come.

    Love from TX,
    Laura

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  13. I know it has to be a tough day for you Courtney. Even though Tripp is pain free in Heaven, I'm sure it's hard for him to not want to be back in your arms as well. We're still here, standing by and praying for you and your family. I was flying home from DFW not too long ago and shared a flight with an amazing young man. While he did not have EB, he was returning from treatments at the University of Minnesota Hospital. It made my day to see him all smiles and know that I helped make that possible through contributions. If it wasn't for you and Tripp, I would have never known about the amazing program they have there. Anyway, I hope you can find peace with each passing day!

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  14. I've been thinking about you today...I'm praying for you and think about you often. Keep hanging in there God still has plans for you!

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  15. Hi there lovely lady. It is so strange and so not strange that someone I don't even know is always on my mind. I am always wondering how you are doing and I look forward to reading your new posts. I pray for you often and every time I play "Elmo and I know it" for my little I think of you. Please know you are being prayed for and your sweet little man touched so many people's lives.

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  16. We are all still here for you Courtney, My heart hurts for you.

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  17. No words written can truly make you feel any better on this day, but please know there are people out there praying for you to hurt less. The pain of loosing a child never goes away, life just has a way of teaching you how to live with it. Your son was and always be so beautiful and cherished by so many. He makes so many people stronger in their lives, even from the clouds above. My prayers and heart are with you and your little boy.

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  18. I think of you often and continue to pray for you daily...not a day goes by that I don't think of your sweet angel. I'm still grateful to you for sharing your journey as it put my own son's now very minor health issues in perspective. As many before me have said...we haven't met but I love you nonetheless. God bless you Courtney. If I could take some of your pain away, I would in a heart beat.

    XOXOXO-
    Mary B.

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  19. <Dios es contigo Courtney!
    Me imagino cuanto lo extrañas.
    Creo q un dia todos iremos a encontrarnos, y ese dia, serà hermoso!
    Un abrazo fuerte desde Uruguay.
    America Latina.
    Luiza.

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  20. When I read your post this evening, my heart skipped a beat. 6 months. 180+/- days. You are in my prayer book and every morning I pray for you, that you can find peace in such sadness.

    Be strong. Be in health. Peace be with you.

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  21. Time really does fly...it's hard to imagine it's been six months already. Keep the faith, dear girl. Peggy

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  22. It's gone so quickly but the love we have for Tripp is still as strong as even in our hearts, never to fade with time. Love to you and your mama precious boy xxx

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  23. Dear Courtney, I thought about you and Tripp a lot yesterday and about how you would feel. Every 14 of the month I remember him in my own special way. I miss him too even if I "met"him only through your blog and it hurts me so much to think how hard it is for you. Tripp is so special with this amazing heart melting smile that warms instantly your hearth. He is truly a Saint to me and many others and he will be always in my hearth. Lots of love, Talia

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  24. take one day at a time, dear Courtney....we are always thinking and praying that God keeps giving you the strength you need to keep moving every day...

    love...

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  25. Oh, Courtney, we miss Tripp so much. I'm sure he has rallied all of the angels in heaven. They march to the marvelous beat of his drum, each angel smiling because they know Tripp. We smile because we know Tripp, but our hearts hurt because he is not with us physically. The physical pain you feel is very real, and my heart hurts because you hurt. I pray that Tripp's brave little spirit makes you feel light every now and then. What a marvelous blessing and privilege for you to be his mommy. He is the luckiest little boy in heaven. We miss him and we love him. Sending you all of our love and prayers from Laguna Beach, California.

    Love, The McChesney Family xoxo

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  26. Sending love and prayers, Courtney. (())

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  27. Praying for your broken heart!
    Best,
    Holly

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  28. Hi Courtney, I think about you and Tripp so often. I had taped the Sesame Street episode where Elmo dresses up like a butterfly and sings "Little Butterfly Friend" - it is such a special song and really does seem as if it was written for your precious little boy. Sending lots of prayers and hugs your way. Gloria from Alexandria, VA

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  29. God bless you as you continue on this journey.

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  30. dearest courtney,
    you are in my thoughts and prayers, constantly. you are loved, from afar.

    christiana (cyprus)

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  31. Thinking of you and will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  32. My heart rejoices for Tripp as he dances with Jesus in heaven, but it aches for you so badly. As a fellow Mommy, I know the love we have for our children in incomprehensible for anyone who is not. That is such a special bond. You will carry that bond with you forever, even beyond this world. I pray for your peace. And, I know that the angels will sing the day that you are able to scoop Tripp up in your arms once more. We love you so very much, and think about you often.

    ~ Kristen Hathcox from Denham Springs, LA

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  33. Much love to you. Peace and strength be with you always until you see your little bubba again. We miss him in a different way of course. He must send you tons of love and know how much you long to hold him again.

    "He will raise you up on eagles wings, bear you on the breath of dawn, make you to shine like the sun, and hold you in the palm of His hands" <--I love that song.

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  34. I've been reading your blog for months now. I fell in love with Tripp just by looking at his pictures and playing his videos. What an amazing, strong and beautiful little boy!!
    My heart breaks Everytime I read your post. You are an amazing women and I've been praying for you!

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  35. Courtney,
    Every one of your posts about your son touches my heart. And I don't think its true that you love him more than he will ever know, I think he knew, from the very moment he was born. I lost my son at 19 weeks and 3 days gestation, and it is not true that time heals all wounds, but it does lessen the pain. In time you will think of your son and remember the happy times, you will always miss him, but you will not always feel this soul crushing pain. It has been almost three years for me and I am able to continue on with life. He is always with me, I carry him in my heart and in the small tattoo I made in his memory. You will always carry Tripp in your heart and in your memories, but I hope that sometime soon the happy memories happy more than the sad ones. You are in my thoughts. Jillian from NC

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  36. Just this morning I was getting dressed and my little boys asked about the little Elmo I have above my mirror. Like always I told them Elmo was there to remind us of Tripp and to pray for his mama. I tell them every chance I can about how Tripp is with Jesus and one day we can meet him! Not sure if I ever shared but Tripp was only a few days older than my oldest so his story is especially near to my heart. God bless you and know we'll forever be remembering y'all!

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  37. Babies touch people's hearts and lives. You and your little Tripp have touched the lives of many people who are strangers to you. God bless you.

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  38. God bless you. I still think of you and Tripp often since I found your blog. Your story has changed the way I look at my son every day. I see how truly blessed I am and it also makes me realize I would live him just as much even if he weren't healthy and do anything for him just like you did for Tripp. You have been a witness to do many people! Praying for you.

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  39. Courtney,

    I have followed your blog for quite a while now. Your strength and faith are inspiring! I heard a song and it reminded me so much of Tripp, I wanted to share:

    I’m a little caterpillar tiny and green
    Crawlin’ around head full of dreams
    Inch by inch takes all day
    I’m dreamin’ of wings and flyin’ away

    Just a little caterpillar down on the ground
    I climb a tree hang upside down
    I don’t know why I build a cocoon
    Not sure why I do what I do

    But if I were a butterfly
    I could leave the ground behind
    Would things look different way up high?
    I wish I were a butterfly

    I’m just a little caterpillar fast asleep
    Eyes closed tight lost in a dream
    In my dream I break free
    Stretch out my legs and check out my wings

    I feel just like a butterfly
    Watch me leave the ground behind
    Things look different way up high
    I feel just like a butterfly

    Praying for you and your family.

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  40. Thinking about you & little Tripp...you both are always in my prayers.

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  41. Courtney,

    You are always in my thoughts and in my prayers. Same goes for your family. I must confess though, my prayers aren't always for peace, but rather for God to show you His will and other big plans for you. You know why? Because in every rough, challenging time I've been through -- it was leaps down the road that I saw why everything happened. As God unraveled and revealed His plans, I gained a bigger understanding for my purpose on this Earth and also for my pain and suffering. And through that understanding...I found my peace. I see now that one can't happen without the other.

    I know in time, this will happen. I know God will deliver and that you'll see that His plans for you are so much bigger than you could have ever dreamed. And at the root of all of His plans, at the very center, will be Tripp. That every single moment leading up to it was all about your baby. And that he will forever be your inspiration and your rock as you pave this new path forward.

    Maybe you'll help other babies. Maybe you'll advocate for EB to the point where you'll lead a foundation or start a program. Maybe you'll find yourself doing something unexpected. The sky is the limit. And that involvement, that project, that plan -- will all bring you the peace and comfort you seek. It will quiet your soul, quiet your fears, and allow you to not "move on" {because we don't ever move on from love} but rather find understanding in all that you've been through. That you'll once again find comfort in the word HOPE.

    I know Bubba will be there for you, watching over you, every step of the way...just as you did for him in life. I know he already is.

    Sending you all my love and hugs!
    Katie H.

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  42. love you & thinking of you, Courtney.

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  43. I came today to look and see how you were doing. My daughter was asking for elmo and wouldnt go to bed without him (found him in the deepest depths of a toy pile ;)And it made me think of you and Trip.

    Sending thoughts and prayers your way to help lessen the hurt.
    Davita B. ND

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  44. I think about you a lot! I hope that your days are getting easier. I check this blog weekly because I find comfort when you do post. I know that sounds weird! I really do hope that things are going well for you. I know that anything is possible but everything is possible with God. You are so blessed in countless way, I hope that the good Lord is showing them to you! :) Sending Love & Hugs your way and praying for positivity to surround you!

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  45. Thinking of you. :) Always look forward to hearing how things are going! xx

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  46. Ive just found your blog and found it both heartbreaking and touching. No mother should have to suffer the loss of a child.
    I spent three hours tonight crying over his beautiful pictures and I can only imagine the pain you have suffered. Your faith is inspiring and your ability to take from his short life the lesson of love is one that we can all learn from. Thank you for helping me to see that I have taken my own children's health and unconditional love for granted. I too have learned something from Tripp-I will be reevaluating my priorities over this holiday weekend. Thank you. I will be thinking of you often. God bless.

    Cortney

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  47. I've just recently found your blog and have found it both heartbreaking an inspiring. No mother should have to suffer the loss of a child, but you have taken from Tripp the lesson of love, something we can all learn a little more of. Thank you for showing me how selfish I have been and how much I take my children's health for granted. I will be reevaluating my priorities over this holiday weekend. Thank you and God bless.

    Cortney

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