Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Eyes and Prayers.

This will be short because I am tired, frustrated, and honestly.... just ticked off.  I had a good first Mother's Day.  Tripp and I spent the day at my parents and my dad's side of the family came over.  Then yesterday he woke up with another swollen eye.  This time the left.  They just keep taking turns.  I don't know why.  I don't know if he rubbed it in the night, if it was from being outside all day, or if he just has some kind of infection.  Frankly, I am tired of trying to figure all of this out.  I'm SO over watching my baby suffer and not being able to do anything about it.  I'm tired of watching him try to play with his toys with his eyes closed.  It's the saddest thing I've ever seen.

The eye doctor didn't want to put the contacts back in because there wasn't an abrasion yet, but today was worse than yesterday so I have a feeling that we will be back at the doctor tomorrow putting the contacts in unless a miracle happens over night (feel free to pray for one...)  Tonight, I'm just sad.  About so many things.  I want my son to stop hurting.  I want him to live a normal life.  I want to take it all away.  It's so not fair and I'm just mad.  Sorry.  I will try to post again and let you know how we are, but I'm also stressing about his party and trying to plan for that.  So sorry if I'm slacking.  Please say some extra prayers for Tripp and if you want to slip in a few for me (because I'm at my wits end over SO many things), I'd appreciate :)  Thanks.

Love,   

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26 comments:

  1. i will definently say some prayers for you and tripp tonight...wish i had magic words to take it all away....((hugs))

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  2. Tripp has so many prayers coming his way from my family.

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  3. Prayers from us too. And hugs.

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  4. I am so sorry that you are feeling so down and helpless right now. Please know that we are praying for both you and Tripp. Happy 1st Mommy's Day!

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  5. I'm sorry your feeling down and out. I'll say some EXTRA prayers for baby Tripp and for you. God knows what you need, so that's what I'll pray for.

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  6. Courtney, I am definitely praying for those sweet little eyes. Praying for you as well. I can not imagine your frustration in seeing your little one hurt ALL the TIME! I hate when mine are hurting for just a brief illness. God is good and I can't wait to see the great way that God will use you and Tripp to bring others close to Him. He's got a plan....Jeremiah 29:11

    Love,
    Jenifer

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  7. Praying harder than ever for Tripp and you, Courtney. Happy 1st Mother's Day also. Love ya'll.

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  8. Praying so hard for Tripp and you too. Glad you had a nice first Mother's Day. I was hoping you would have a nice day. Give Tripp a kiss for me.
    Hang in there Courtney, the month will be over before you know it, I hope! Love Leah's Nana

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  9. You don’t know me, and I have never commented but I have been reading the story of Tripp for a while now and I’m friends with Patrice! I just wanted you to know I’m Praying for you guys! my Heart hurts for you and Patrice and I pray for Tripp along with Jonah every night, that God will take all this away from them two sweet handsome little boys!!! Praying you will find peace and that all the stress will be lifted off your shoulders! Praying for Tripp’s eyes to be healed! Love in Christ! Erica McKnight

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  10. You and Tripp are in my thoughts and prayers!!
    I pray today is a better day!!
    Kelli

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  11. I pray for you guys every day!! I've been following you and also Patrice(and Jonah) since the beginning and I think you are both incredible mothers! I don't know how you do it, you amaze me and you are such a great testimony!
    Praying for the eyes and everything else today.

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  12. Prayers for the both of you. I really admire your strength, but it is okay to lean on others when you need to.
    I noticed it looks like y'all are working on the porch. I assume you will be putting the windows so Tripp can enjoy being outside without having to suffer in this heat. I'm sure he will enjoy that.
    Paula

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  13. y'all are all definitely in my prayers. Stay strong. I hope his eyes feel better soon!!!

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  14. Hang in there! One day at a time....

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  15. Hello. I recently found your blog. I am praying for your special son! You are an inspirational family :)

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  16. Praying little Tripp's eyes will be better soon. Sorry you are having such a hard time right now sending you many hugs to you both.

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  17. I'll be praying for Tripp's eyes to get better and also for peace for you, Courtney. I know how tough planning the first big birthday bash can be. Just remember that it's going to be perfect, no matter what, because Tripp is there with you guys and you are celebrating him. :) Big hugs to you!

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  18. Sweet Courtney, I read your blog a lot but dont usually comment. This post brought some tears to my eyes. I have 2 year old triplets and the thought of them in pain and being helpless to it is so heartbraking. I know its easy for me to say this, but hang in there. That precious baby is so loved and loves you and that my friend will trump the pain. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

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  19. Courtney,
    I figured I should introduce myself. My daughter has Cystic Fibrosis amoungst many many other issues. Right now we are in the hospital...so I am in blog land all night. I have been reading your blog for awhile and thought that it would be nice to try and contact you to talk. Its always nice to have someone there, going through "stress" if thats what you can call it, and just living life the best we can. Please, feel from the email me
    kmessineo@tmail.com
    or facebook me, kayla messineo
    Love,
    Kayla & Skye

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  20. I followed Jonah's blog to your blog. You and Patrice are the most amazing and inspiring women (and mothers!)that I have come across in this bloggy-world. The love you have for your children and the constant sacrifices you make on their behalf is awe-inspiring. I will certainly say a prayer for you, and Tripp, too.
    ~Shelly

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  21. I am so sorry Sir Tripp is having more eye issue's. I wish it could be as easy as putting some goggles to protect them but its not. Praying for well eyes for his birthday!

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  22. I'm sorry that Tripps eyes are having troubles. He is the cutest little boy ever! I will pray for him and for you to get better. Stay strong :)
    Karen C.

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  23. Courtney,
    I haven't commented in awhile but I'm sooo sorry to hear Tripp is still having a problem with his eyes. I've prayed each night for ya'll ever since I learned about his illness but the last few days I've been praying for you to take away some of hurt you are feeling.
    HAPPY HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY MAY 14TH TO THE "LITTLE KNIGHT."

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  24. Hi Tripp: Happy Happy Birthday. Do you know how special you are and how so many people love you.
    Sure hope you have a wonderful day and a super wonderful birthday party tomorrow. Wish I could be there but we will meet soon. Can't wait until I meet the whole family. Love you guys!!! Love Leah's Nana

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  25. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL!!!!! We love you so much lil man! I'm so sorry about your poor eyes. I will say special prayers just for them. Courtney, I will pray for you also through this difficult time. Close your eyes, take a deep breath and look up. God is shining on you and his special angel. Just like everything, sight is a precious gift from God - A simple reminder from God through Tripp. To be able to see all those special smiles he gives only you, and for him to be able to look into your eyes when he's scared, the gift of sight is amazing. I know it may seem at times that you would like to just shut your eyes to it all though, the pain, the stress, the unbearable sores. Lean on God for comfort when it seems hardest, he will pull you through it. When your mad and hurting and praying so hard for a miracle without answer, its hard to ask God for comfort. But he will reward you for your faith with comfort, I assure you. I love you and that baby that came into this world one year ago as ONE in 2 million and has thus far, defied so many odds. Court, Tripp is still here today because of YOU! You have LOTS of support of course, but YOU are the one who has spent every waking minute trying to figure out a way to keep Tripp healthy enough to make it to the next day. You've done it for an enire year. I cant imagine the pressure you must feel on a daily basis. Your love for for Tripp is so genuine and true, so completely selfless, a love that most of us will never know.

    Thank you for all your hard work and dedication to Tripp and to God. We are all very honored to be a part of his very special life.

    Love always,
    Jayme Millet

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